Ouch....

i 'm hurt....i dunno how to discribe my feeling the pain from my heart u guys never know
it is " OUCHNESS" how ever now she is other's gal i erally hop tat she can b very very happy...
n i'm gald tat she finally talk wit me before tat i felt tat i'm very useless n hopeless!! when the
1st time she came back 2 kk i should try 2 get her back but i din do it i really really felt stupid
when the tat time but it pass now....i regret of everything a sentance really gud 4 us "when u
hv ur belove u wont know her/he well after berak wit him/her then only u regret" i hope those
my fren n who view my blog tat hv belove don easily let them go after tat u guys really really
will regret....why i'm yalking all this ???? me myself also dunno......i hope u guys will understand
me

"18"

sorry guys....now a days i was very very busy..i don hv time 2 on9 hope u guys can 4give me hehe!!!!em....where should i start???ok start from here...this few week i was busying wit my thingsss haizzz.....so annoying n i seldom on9 cos i don hv the lan cable well let me find my own place n i'll apply the lan cable..on tat tim e i'll b keep disturb u guys haha....hmmmmm!!! u guys must b very excited tat y i put my post title "18 " is a very long story 2 let u guys know
but actually it is a very meaningfull number 4 me i wish 2 tell her tat how much i need her n miss her.....u guys dunno how i feel now really really suffer i wish 2 see her but i can't i wish 2 do things 4 her but i can't...cos i don wan 2 see her cry anymore n unhappy.....wat can i do?
can some one pls tell me wat should i do ???the only thing tat i can do is pray....pray 4 everything
how he can help me!!!!so sorry guys i should not tell u all this but i can't find some one 2 talk wit tat's i choose here n write everything in here cos here just like my dairy....actually she make me grow mature a lot......em i think i gonna stop here i'll write more next time....=)

Really TIRED!!!!!!!

Is almost 5 p.m here..why am i still a wake ner???me...myself also dunno wat is going on
really hv no time 2 chat wit u guys cos this few month really really busy.....busy about my
furture study...i'll b going 2 uk 2 hv my furture study...as u guys know i'm hving another
subject when i was doing my a-lvl. Is my " QS " haizzz now is half where i still hv half more month 2 finsh this subject...i'm really complicated i wish 2 talk 2 her..i wish 2 talk wit some1
tat understand wat is going on wit me here....
some time really hate myself, why can't i make my own choice all of this is my dad wan me 2
do like this...as special going 2 uk....haizzz i had make some1 wont trust me anymore
but i'm really wan her 2 know tat " yes i might b lies on u,fool on u, but i never cheat on u"
hope she know wat is my meaning n try 2 think deeper....wat am i talking about here..???
Haizz wat ever.....everybody ask me not 2 let go so easily...but i wanna ask them wat can i do?
i miss her...i really miss her but wat can i do guysssss???
nothing much i can do.i just can put those memories in my mind n my heart....really deep by the way...sry guys can't hv fun wit u guys anymore i need 2 go uk for 4 years..
anyway gud nite guysss after i had wrote this i few better now i can slp.....slp THIGH guys!!!

Phewww....

Hey guyss...sorry 4 long time din post somethg in here....haizzz this few month i'm going 2 b very very busy but 1 thg i wanna tell tat is my visa 2 oversea study approve ady yeah yeahhhh..now the only thing is i'm gonna wait 4 my result,dunno whether i can pass or not leh?i hope u guys keep me in ur prayer.....yea as special u.........thx yea!!!!haixxx really a long story 2 tell u guys mayb i'm going 2 uk on AUG ner....cos i need 2 find a house there,hope i can get a very big n nice house.actually i go over uk is 4 some one but now i think it wont happen ady....i can say wit out her i dunno whether can stay over there n keep myself hardworking or nott!!!!!HEHEHEHE...cos se really make me grow up a lot at least now i'll think somethg more mature....Dunno going 2 prepare wat ner...a lot of thgs 2 going 2 pack wit.go oversea study look like very fun but when u wan 2 prepare this n tat then u'll know wat i'm going 2 tell u.....really "ANNOYING" u guys gonna ask me wat i'm going 2 do now a dayss...nth 2 say lor just go 2 my dad firm n help him upp.."1 Bornoe" u guys went 2 there ady?i'm so pity i haven't get a step in PITY me......actually we hv say 2 each other last time we'll go 2gether but now i think can't happen just put it in my memoryyyyyy is a sweetes memoriesssssss 4 me...k la catch up wit u guys next time TAKE CARE everyoneee.........

Really PIAN!!!

Now is 4.30 p.m i din slp 4 the whole day til now....GENG! looks like very proud...this is crazy n is tired.wat can i do?nth much...aihh!! Jeremy ah Jeremyyyyy.......actually every nite i'll like tis mayb is bcos of her...i try 2 say everything when we r still 2gether but i dunno how 2 tell her tat i really need her.I try 2 do everything the best 4 her i try everything is everythinggggg.......some time i really hate myself when i can't tell her my feeling mayb is bcos i love her 2 much i care her feeling more then mine tat's why i don wan let her feel bad or hurt when i tell her..."wo ling yuan wo zhi ji toung dou bu yuan yi rang ta toung" mayb i'm wrong...i'm using the wrong way 2 treat her, 2 make her feel happy i'm wrong i'm really wrong........i din't blame her. At of this is all my fault,i'm not a gud boyfriend.





I didn’t know why you didn’t show up sometimes, It’s something more than saying "I miss you" But separation brings you never let me know it, you never let it show because, you loved me and obviously there’s so much more left to say....i know is very hard 4 "U"2 talk wit me but i really wan 2 tell u everything....as a prisonal b4 they punish as a death panelty they also hv their last wish...i remember tat she told me b4..This year she hv a wish,her wish is she wan 2 b wit me always n want 2 b a gud girlfriend....i'n very very very happy when i heard tat until now i still remember tat....

I never knew I could hurt like this n everyday life goes on like "I wish I could talk to you for awhile" "I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
2 day 29th of may......i found tat she ahd deleted over sweet memories photo..at this moment i feel very paiiiinnn.......is hard 2 breathe. Actually last nite i had call 2 her uk house but i guess tat she had cut the phone line....so truthly de i really miss her..T_T

Wat HAPPEN!!

Wat happen 2 me...?why i din slp 4 the whole day?wat wrong wit me?i can't always like this but wat should i do?how 2 make me don like this?last sunday feel even more bad...i cal some1 wit unsuitable time..feel so bad on tat time i really hope tat it wont be like tat..why no1 can help me wit this...GOD pls help me!!!Just help me up wit everyrthing "hao mah?" just now i just hv a test i 4gotten ady but luckly everytime when in the lecture i had done my work so i think i can pass the test "GUA"haizzz don care so much ner catch up wit u guys next time cos i'm really tired i need 2 slp a while....

Haizz....blog had been SPAM!!!!!

This few days my blog had been spam.....so chah aihh...make me feel bad n can't doing anythg n dunno who should i talk wit...this few days i'm very tired but i can't even close my eyes everynite i'm so suffer...but the next day i still hv class i really dunno wat should i do.....so so so i dunno how i gonna tell u all my feeling

Saddd!!!!!

今天的我到底这么了? 我也不知道....我该怎么办??我真的不知怎么办...好难过...好难过...
爱你 不需要原因 只要有一颗真心 分隔两地 也可以传给你 爱你 不会有距离 只要你在我心里
随时随地 我也可以感觉得到你. 如果爱上就不要轻易放过机会.

The 1st day blogging......

Hey guys...this is my 1st day tat i start my blog here i'll tell u al my thing tat in my life n everythg tat i wan 2 share wit u guys..actually 2day i'm kinda sad n feel suffer...as u al knw a things 4 a guys 2 worry is money n love relationship....ofcours money 4 me is dtil ok....actually i'm still studying la....aihhhh Jeremy ah Jeremy ah........why everytime also like tat when u take out evreythg it is no work at allll........2day i din slp 4 the whole day i was so suffer at nite...i can't even close my eyes my mind full of her i really reallyyyyyyy....miss her!!!!i wan 2 say 2 her but i scare her feel bad my heart now really very veryy.......dunno how 2 say the feeling really suffer....